I have to move out on Aug 31st and searching for a new apartment is a time-consuming, gut-wrenching process. It will be hard for me to find something that I like as much as the place that I'm in now. It is large, well equipped, sunny, quiet, near markets and three bus lines. It's a place where I can invite friends for dinner. I have a desk to work at, good internet connection, a TV, a separate bedroom, an elevator, a place to put my bike. And it's affordable.
I just gave up an option on another place - that's the gut wrenching part. It was in a fabulous neighborhood, with markets and four bakeries within a half a block. Two parks nearby too. Sunny, not too noisy, but smaller and more expensive than the place I'm in now. No desk, no table for eating and working.
It's the second guessing that is bad. What if I let that one go and I don't find another as good?
But maybe I'll find something even better? I have another lead - a larger place in a good neighborhood, great view, quiet, but more expensive, no elevator, the nearest bakery at least a block away. It's got better transport connections, but there's something about it - maybe the pictures on the wall? - that make it seem "old".
Wish me luck as I try to find another place to live that I can afford and that fulfills most of the items on my wish list.